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Why are you always be my only truth you ...?

" Wipe those thoughts from your head ... do Laura ...". The reason .

" No. .. now I'm back to live? Never." The heart.

After being brutally destroyed by reason, I still have a reason to trust her, and discard what is true is always lived in me ...? I could still turn into a body without a soul, for two long months ...? If I had listened to the heart, I lived ...

If I had listened to the heart, I would never slipped so far.

I think I have a certainty ... you know? In all this mess. In all this uncertainty that I felt around. Yet I can not explain the exact words ... But ... I'm not able to say ... The problem is that it confuses me. confuses me terribly.

The fact is that ... after 2 months ... 2 months ... Guido and I, we are writing ... I feel my heart beat back, to return the blood to flow in the veins, my face filled with emotion TRUE, the desire to go outside to run, to breathe ... and HE to have started a conversation, not wanting to finish, is HIM ... he is a girl ... but I think more and more that this girl with him there is going to comfortable. To not be alone. He can not love her. Not really.

I see the way he writes ... by the way he looks at me whenever we meet, He knows that I love him , me in the eyes ... He knows he was for me all, he knows that will never find a girl who loves him as much as I had never even been together ... and he knows all too well that I'd always be there for him, despite my cold words ... he always would know how to melt your heart, how to make me his, because he is my own.

He always had, I do not ever return. NEVER .

are no longer 'able to love after him ... never once ...

... And what happens? And 'as if this period full of cuts, tears, pain, sadness, longing for death, silence, darkness ... it is as if he had not even existed.

Because maybe there is rationality in all this. Does not exist.

I know one thing.
If we now give in to pride, though now he dreams of my resignation to the nights, if we gave up quietly to love him ... ricadrei in bulimia. I know.
If we now leave me free to think, going out, to dream and love him ... I think the hope I would have. I think I could really think about returning to live .
In the end ... if this is a mistake, I have committed many mistakes in my life?
this can not be the best, fucking stupid mistake for LOVE ...?
I always listened to others tell me that he was not for me, I deserve more ... but it is not. The best that can be earned him ... because He was at the peak of my dreams.
And from now on I'll throw more 'on the ground to escape.

Painting Red Dress/beach

Ascent ...?


E 'on the first morning that I make up for weeks. good sign ...?

I must say that seeing me the most beautiful in the mirror gave me a bit of motivation.

The food has made me anxious , I always feel my heart in my throat, every time I hear the front door open, every time the phone rings, I experience a feeling of dread inside me as if at any moment someone would get me something. However we

to the point ... Uu

bad yesterday I vented to my mother, still to Guido ... I went on, because inside of me I was really

bad and I needed to cry, to vent ... and I found that by doing so I can feel clean and do not want to binge.

Now that's a MIRACLE .

I really do feel lighter now.

But yesterday was hellish ... I swear girls, even for what I continued to write ... yesterday in bed crying, I could not sleep, and say that I ever happens.

crying over the fear of being around me a great mistake.

This I'm always afraid that someone wants to get rid of me .

Although in reality I have always hidden . Yes

hidden behind a mask that I hated wearing to cover all of my emotions, my feelings, here's where I brought that mask ... the perfect girl .

But I understand ... I prefer when people are really MYSELF. What

speak, say what you think, cry, vent ... only helps you to live, that's no use living in silence pretending to be someone else ... and it is so beautiful.

does not seem true ... I swear I do not really ...

Yesterday my grandmother has "given " a lot 'of money ... and I must say also that I pulled up. Always remember that you know a special girl, I can do many things, I do not have thrown to the ground or listen to the criticism of those who are envious.

Then I decided to do some shopping on the Internet, even for me to return the WANT TO LIVE ... so I decided that I will order a poster of a beautiful movie of a great actor I love, then ... a blue Chinese dress (you know those silk short sleeve?), a Japanese kimono, a book always in that film and another on anorexia. How nice! I must say that I feel a lot lighter:) was not so much that I did some shopping as well.

For the rest ... This morning I saw myself thinner. Yesterday I threw up in the morning for tea and juice I drank only a binge of vegetables for dinner ... I assure you that binge eating vegetables are best in the world, because you can eat without guilt, are good and filling.

And this morning? Well I do not know how it happened ... but I contented 1 apple, 1 cup of cappuccino with milk, 2 tablespoons of cereal and only 2 biscuits ! :)

And I do not even hunger or appetite for something sweet ... I just want to eat vegetables and drinking pots of tea ... I believe that by doing so I can lose weight a few pounds:)

In ultimis ...? Well ... maybe something absurd ... but I have the impression that Guido show a slight interest in me always. I thought about it often ... he denies being interested in me, but proves to be ! Because every time I write, feel .. and goes on like this for almost 3 years. And I've always believed that boys who said they were interested in me, but they were not at all. But otherwise he is blatantly honest with me ... and yet he's never really gone ... that's what gave me doubts.

him I was not among friends on Facebook does not want because I look at her things. But ... his friend had tagged me a link where HIM NOT CENTERED own, but somehow never took to comment on what I wrote! And other times, ALWAYS ... but also in reality. Search ... you know ... to appear as the best in front of me when there are other guys, or even when it comes to our house. Well I think this is nonsense ... now he is with and I must not forget that I used ... then will make his own money when he returns.

While it is best not to expect anything good from him.

What do you think ...? (

Yes

probably that I have done with him ... And I'd really better get it over ... pity that my heart still beats for him. Already ... a shame ...

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Staying at home is hell. Questions over questions. But fuck fucking leave me alone ... because they have to continue? Why pretend that I pretend to smile, to make glad their stupid pride? I do not want to smile.
And I do not.
I'm tired of making the best of a bad situation.
It 's time for others to understand me ...